I apologize for not posting anything in the last nine months.  I meant to.  I even started to once.  But I couldn’t find the words I needed to finish it.  In the last few months, things went very much downhill with my boyfriend at the time.  We broke up and I moved back home.  I was out of work for a few months when I got back to California, but I finally found a job.  I don’t really want to get into details of the breakup.  Suffice to say, it wasn’t pretty or the way I would have wanted it to end.

At least I am home.  Since I have been back, I have been much happier.  I am with family and back to a routine that I am comfortable with.  Back to being around people I can be normal and myself with.  My dad and I started a real garden in the backyard.  One with lots of vegetables and a few fruits.  It makes me happy to see our work growing and producing outside.  Dad pulled a few carrots today to thin them out and give the stronger ones more space.  There was one big enough to actually taste.  A pretty purple carrot that was sweet and delicious.  Just too bad it was so small! lol But then again, they really aren’t ready for harvest yet.

We also have a few chickens.  Six sweet girls.  I am super excited about them.  They are almost four months old.  It will still be a while before they start laying, but it is so much fun watching them grow.  Their little personalities are so entertaining.  One of the girls, an Americauna loves to sit on my lap when I go into the pen to visit them.  She usually flies up to my shoulder or leg (if I’m sitting), nestles in and closes her eyes.  I am so glad that part of my dreams are coming true.  Even in the smallest ways.

Life is funny.  It doesn’t ever turn out the way we plan.  I had pictured my life differently.  When Bobby and I broke up, I thought I would be losing most of my dreams.  But I am a stubborn woman and I still want to see those dreams come to fruition.  Even if I have to go about them in a different way, on a different path.  I will get what I want.  I even met someone new that, so far, is pretty darn close to perfect.  We’ve been dating for almost a month and I really enjoy his company.  I am comfortable with him.  I am really looking forward to seeing where this aspect of life takes me as well.